Month: September 2003

I’m tired… i feel lethargic, nothing matters, i have no energy,

03:21] AuthorPizzaman: last night i had nightmares
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: with LA
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: 🙁
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: i remember i was in some room ..
[03:21] kumascak: luva ya babes
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: and some people were having sex on a bed
[03:21] kumascak: I’ll talk with you tomorrow
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: and .. i looked at them
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: and one was hiding under the covers
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: and when i removed the covers it was LA
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: and .. before removing the covers .. i was scared..and i remember feeling scared..
[03:22] kumascak: oh my
[03:22] kumascak: nasty dream
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: cause i was dreading it was LA
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: 🙁
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: yeah.. sucked
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: night

I don’t criticize people that do something wrong, I criticize people who do things wrong intentionally and keep doing it knowingly that they are hurting themselves or others.

I think through times, although I am somehow of a good listener. Sometimes on important situations I’ve didn’t really listened to what people had to say. said “the bad thing about getting back together is that the emotion is not there, the magic of getting to know the other and finding all the little things about each other.” .. I have to listen..

[12:36] [scak] -> …™: lol, I’ve thought about it a lot, I just never say a thing
[12:36] [scak] -> …™: I already know you so well, and you know me so well, we were a couple once, we had an incredible good time, we had a very strong bond, we have a connection that we’ve seen through time…
[12:37] [scak] -> …™: it’s not hard to be with you, as I love you, and i know you love me, but I think we both need to heal and move on completely from our past, in order to consider dating
[12:37] [scak] -> …™: cause I don’t want to be with you, when you’re thinking of L.A, and I’m sure you don’t want to be with me, while I think of ks.

…..

[13:57] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: you know one sucky thing about us
[13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: waht ? [13:57] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: that I know you so fucking well, so there won't be any rush or thrill... [13:57] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I read you like an open book 🙂 [13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: mmm.. [13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: i think there might be.. [13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: i'm not sure.. [13:58] -> Pizzaman <-: mmm.. i'm surely trilled everytime i see you [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: if you get psico on me 🙂 and start being this totally new person [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I didn't meant that thrill [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I mean, things to discover, and so on [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I pretty much know how you think about most things in life [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I still get nervous when I see you :p

got a new semagic..

how come time goes so fast..
I woke up… checked the net, chatted with and then it was almost 1pm, I took a bath, and went with Tyler to the store, bought a BUNCH of stuff for all the cooking a had planned. I made..

• Baby greens with pear and rockefort
• Fetuccini with Pesto alla Trapanese
• Fresh berry tart (with included making the crust, the custard (pastry cream), and the glaze)

this took me great part of the day, came from shopping like at 3, and ended up serving at 7:30 .. and sitting on the puter again like at 9:30 pm.

Where did my day went ?

Esta es la manera de mi ex-ex-ex de hacerme un favor..

xdxdx says:
moraleja: sácate la mopa de la cabeza y luce como gente y como alguien de tu edad

no wonder why I’ve suffered from depression all my life..
he sounds like a weird mother, HEY .. just like mine

Went to the beach today, played with the dogs for hours, I’m getting such a deep tan it’s not even funny. It’s sooo kewl to go to the beach with no worries and just play with the dogs catch the ball. On the beach there is no money, no clothes, no party, no sex, no boyfriend, no job, no school, no food, no nuthing… worry free life..

I’m not sure if I have a big problem. I might be scared of showing affection towards a member of the same sex. mmm.. well.. here is the story.. on my last 2 relationships I’ve been truly madly deeply in love with my ex-ex, and completely in love with my ex. To them both I showed as much affection and love as I could, and I feel like somehow both of them got bored with it all and in the end they dumped me and didn’t cared much about it.

Also it has happened to me that some guys that I haven’t been attracted to, have fell in love with me, and all their love showing have really tired me, it feels so sticky and tiresomely sweet.. EWWW.. maybe just cause I wasn’t attracted to them, I guess.

But still I’m afraid to say I love you.. I think I will bother people and make them run away from me.

I think I have a throat infection or something, I’ve been taking antibiotics for a week now.. and the throat feels better, but i feel really blue. I think that happens when i take antibiotics.