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This post contains very disturbing contents, please DO NOT READ IT.
If you still wish to read it, we give a fuck what you think.
The manager

I am sad. I’ve been thinking that I might not acomplish anything in my life anyways, and just living for the heck of it is a big waste of time. So I’ve came to the decision of finishing it all. Tonight, at exactly 1am, I will fill the bathtub with warm water, sprinkle some potpurri in the bathroom floor, fill a glass with some prosecco and slowly get naked. On a second though, i better not be naked for when help arrives.

It’s gonna be fast and simple, not as exciting as I’ve thought before, but what the heck. It’s not a fucking contest, and my life has been lame enough, so who cares.

I’ve came to this conclusion after giving it a lot of thought, I’m an imbecile. (FUCK YOU). and fuck this shit.

the house.

Sooo.. what’s going on in my life.. not much.. it’s going s

Sooo.. what’s going on in my life..
not much.. it’s going slooooooooooooooooow as always..
I’ve been here 1 month already, and so far i haven’t acomplished much.
I got transcripts from my university (finally) .. although I still have a “grade pending” in the co-op.
I finally got my employment card, yay !!.. If I wanted I could get a job anywhere tomorrow. !! woohooo
what else ?..
same shit.. different day..

go on with your life, start living, don’t live in the past, pull your shit together..

don’t hurt me !.. just stop hurting me.. don’t kick me when I’m down, that’s the only sound i hear, the sound of your shoes against my face, you say you love me, but can’t you see that you’re hurting me?

repeat them more, say it once more, louder, maybe that way will work, maybe adding some violence, that will help too. i wish i wasn’t dead, maybe you could help me and kill me again, but someone was quicker than you. I just don’t understand what you say.

Aminoacids again

Today I bought aminoacids again..

I bought:

  • DLPA 400 = DL- Phenilalanina
  • L- Tyrosine 1000
  • Vitamin B6 200

l-Phenylalanine is a precursor to tyrosine, which converts to the neurotransmitters norepinephrine, epinephrine, dopamine and tyramine. Tyrosine and its metabolites have been shown to support emotional well-being, memory and learning.

d-Phenylalanine contributes by regulating the level of specific endorphins, thereby calming stressed muscles and their joints. Reference: Beckmann H, et al. DL-phenylalanine versus imipramine: a double-blind controlled study. Arch Psychiatr Nervenkr 1979 Jul 4;227(1):49-58.

L-tyrosine is a nonessential amino acid (protein building block) that the body synthesizes from phenylalanine, another amino acid. Tyrosine is important to the structure of almost all proteins in the body. It is also the precursor of several neurotransmitters, including L-dopa, dopamine, norepinephrine, and epinephrine.

Vitamin B6, folic acid, and copper are necessary for conversion of L-tyrosine into neurotransmitters.

Also we saw a movie called Food of love, story of an older musician who has an affair with an 18 year old, and how everything complicates when the mother of the kid finds out and the boyfriend of the musician sleeps with the kid as well. Geez.. It was kinda interesting because, like life, everything gets fucked up with people lying left and right.