Why it seems relationships don’t work right?… From all the

Why it seems relationships don’t work right?… From all the relationships I’ve seen in my life, very few work. At first they might work for a while, but the more the time they spend together and the less responsabilities they have, the worse the relationship is gonna work. Looks like the best relationships are the ones where they enjoy little time together. Maybe that’s what it’s called quality time.

There is this guy that I’ve been chatting with daily for som

There is this guy that I’ve been chatting with daily for sometime, his name is Enrique (Cupid, Pony). He first messaged me a while ago thru ICQ and we liked each other, after some time chatting, we playfully became cyberboyfriends. I wasn’t very serious about it and was just having it as a form of fun. After a while I started liking him a little bit more and trying to express how I felt more with the use of words. We used to *hug* and *kiss* virtually all the time and it was good fun.

Today he told me he met this guy and he likes him. I felt bad about it, it made me feel like a failure, I cannot even keep a Cyberboyfriend.

I’m sleepy…

I just came back from my therapist. I was telling her about

I just came back from my therapist. I was telling her about what has happened over the week and among many others one of the things that we talked about was ‘s evil LJ post.Talking about it was very enlighting because it made me realize that I don’t let myself feel. She really tried to focused on what I felt when I read the post, but I stuttered and nothing came to my mind, it was like I didn’t felt anything, it was more like I just blocked my feelings when I read it and just analyzed it’s content and made an opinion based on facts and not on feelings. This is something that is good because that’s they way I’ve grown up, and I’ve learned how to deal with feeling but also it’s pretty bad, because even though I don’t get hurt (usually), I don’t enjoy happiness either.

From now on I will try to focus more on what I feel, and I’ll try to write more about what I feel instead of analysis of the facts. Feeling is good !

お月見

お月見 -> o tsuki mi

Viewing the moon party.

Today I went with Sandra to my Japanese course viewing the moon party. It’s a very old Japanese tradition at the end of autumn. I ate a lot of different things, I specially liked a peanut sauce pasta. The sushi wasn’t very good though.

Sandra seemed to enjoy it a lot. It was a nice experience. I’m going to draw now..

Inmensely loved boyfriend, I am writing you this letter ton

Inmensely loved boyfriend,

I am writing you this letter tonight because I miss you very much. I wish you were here right now cuddled at my side and horsing around. I now know I have to cherish every minute you will be with me, because if you’re ever not at my side I will be engulfed in sorrow. All this love I have inside is for you, just come here and take it, it’ll be waiting.

I want to say that you are the most wonderful person I’ve ever met. You presence brings peace to my heart, and you smile bring warmth to my soul. I became the luckiest person in the world the day I met you, and I thank god everyday because if it wasn’t for the past you wouldn’t be.

You are wonderful, your lips are so beutiful and soft, your skin is tender and gentle, your eyes with so much deepness and that beautiful color. When you hug me I feel protected and loved, it feels like for us nothing else matter. Although we live our own lives and enjoy our own things, together we spend the most amazing quality time, when we are together we know we’re first.

Touching you makes me go someplace I’ve never been before, makes me feel like if we were just one, makes me want cry, tears of joy. Tears of confusion, a confusion that just makes me wonder, how can I love you so much?