Author: pizzaman

How many times have i jacked off to date.

since 13 ( I was a late bloomer)

19 years of jacking off, probably in average once a day = 6935 times

priceless..

I hate technical project management. It sucks and it’s a lot of work and it’s boring.. I hate it !!

also..

I hope life gets better than this, cause it sucks so far. Too much work for very few happy moments.

Went to Boston today, It was fun. Skated all over the place, went to Quincy Market twice, to chinatown a few times and overall had some fun. Drank an iced tea and a liter of water. Ate at McD, one filet-o-fish, one double cheeseburger and one McChicken. Ate a cream cheese brownie (don’t ask) that was good.

Also visited some of the places I visited with Luis Antonio while we were there. Wow.. I saw this CUTE kids, to young for my age though… they must’ve been like 13.

Wasn’t able to do anything with the Japan Visa, cause I needed some extra documents, I’ll get them this week.

I just woke up, I’ve been dreaming all night about Luis Antonio, as if he was here and we were talking about him and his life. It hurted me freaming about talking about sex. He was telling me about who he was sex with and wether he likes it or not. Geee, I need to get over this, but I’m not sure if I want. 🙁

well, there is no other alternative anyways.

I’m feeling really sad now… I don’t know why.. but I hint maybe it’s cause I was expecting to have a nice talk today with my exbf, and we didn’t chat much. He was kinda busy doing his homework. I wanted to chat with him. On monday we talked on the phone and I felt really good. I miss him so much. I wish I could make people happy so they don’t leave me, but I’m not very good spreading joy when there is no much of it inside me. I’m depressed now, but usually I’m just in a neutral state.

Today I went to the shrink, we talked a lot, there were times I didn’t understood what she was saying, i just nooded, that happens a lot to me.

I think I finally got the email I was waiting for..

Hello Mr. Aranguren,

Thank you for contacting me. I am excited about having you as a member of
our team.

Blah Blah Blah
Mr. X
Japan

Soo lets forget about what I am thinking and just feel. I feel excited that I am going to Japan, this big changes that are specs of hope that and might make everything better are really exciting for me. It’s a whole other culture so maybe I’ll find what I am looking for there, or better, what’s in there will help me find what I’m looking for in me.

I feel full, I ate at the China Buffet with kip (inside joke), and I ate too much.

Seems like finally the Co-op is coming together. I’m gonna be emailing Japan directly now, and I’ll be able to talk with the IT staff.

Yesterday Joey and I went to the Swan Point cemetery it wasn’t planned but we were looking for the blackstone park and found the cemetery instead, the day before I’d been talking with Ryan about the purity test and he told me that he had sex in a cemetery before, that kinda made me jealous. hehehe.. So well… it’s not like I had sex in the cemetery, but at least we got to make out.. it was fun !! 🙂

At first we went to the East Side Pockets on Thayer Street to buy some food, and some drinks at CVS cause they are cheaper, and we drove all the way to Swan Point Cemetery. There we parked the car and ate and played with acorns for a while (learned how to whistle with one). After a while we started walking and went to the shore of the lake which i believe is part of the narraganset bay. We played there for a while and started walking, found this awesome bench covered with moss and sat there and talked and hugged and kissed a little. Then we started walking again and went to this secluded point and there we started kissing and rubbing a lot more. Seems like he wanted to do more but I kinda didn’t got the idea clear. It was very sweet, sitting besides a tombstone kissing.

After that we ended up going to a area of the cemetery where they are still developing and it’s all covered with sand dunes, I found there a broken snowboard and started playing with it going down the dunes, was tiresome but sooo nice. Joey didn’t jumped into the sand dunes with me, I could’ve predicted that, it’s okay as long as he lets me.

I scored 40¼% on the classic 400 Point Purity Test!

Take the test here!