Author: pizzaman

Sooo.. what’s going on in my life..
not much.. it’s going slooooooooooooooooow as always..
I’ve been here 1 month already, and so far i haven’t acomplished much.
I got transcripts from my university (finally) .. although I still have a “grade pending” in the co-op.
I finally got my employment card, yay !!.. If I wanted I could get a job anywhere tomorrow. !! woohooo
what else ?..
nothing..
same shit.. different day..

don’t hurt me !.. just stop hurting me.. don’t kick me when I’m down, that’s the only sound i hear, the sound of your shoes against my face, you say you love me, but can’t you see that you’re hurting me?

repeat them more, say it once more, louder, maybe that way will work, maybe adding some violence, that will help too. i wish i wasn’t dead, maybe you could help me and kill me again, but someone was quicker than you. I just don’t understand what you say.

I have this enourmous headache. We saw the movie La Virgen de los Sicarios. I loved it.

http://www.gaydar.co.uk/atltravelboiz

see picture two, my ex is in red shirt..

the other 2 guys are his current boyfriends..

🙁

*thanks to peter I saw this pic

i don’t feel like writing any fucking shite

Today I bought aminoacids again..

I bought:

• DLPA 400 = DL- Phenilalanina
• L- Tyrosine 1000
• Vitamin B6 200

l-Phenylalanine is a precursor to tyrosine, which converts to the neurotransmitters norepinephrine, epinephrine, dopamine and tyramine. Tyrosine and its metabolites have been shown to support emotional well-being, memory and learning.

d-Phenylalanine contributes by regulating the level of specific endorphins, thereby calming stressed muscles and their joints. Reference: Beckmann H, et al. DL-phenylalanine versus imipramine: a double-blind controlled study. Arch Psychiatr Nervenkr 1979 Jul 4;227(1):49-58.

L-tyrosine is a nonessential amino acid (protein building block) that the body synthesizes from phenylalanine, another amino acid. Tyrosine is important to the structure of almost all proteins in the body. It is also the precursor of several neurotransmitters, including L-dopa, dopamine, norepinephrine, and epinephrine.

Vitamin B6, folic acid, and copper are necessary for conversion of L-tyrosine into neurotransmitters.

Also we saw a movie called Food of love, story of an older musician who has an affair with an 18 year old, and how everything complicates when the mother of the kid finds out and the boyfriend of the musician sleeps with the kid as well. Geez.. It was kinda interesting because, like life, everything gets fucked up with people lying left and right.

I’m tired… i feel lethargic, nothing matters, i have no energy,

03:21] AuthorPizzaman: last night i had nightmares
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: with LA
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: 🙁
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: i remember i was in some room ..
[03:21] kumascak: luva ya babes
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: and some people were having sex on a bed
[03:21] kumascak: I’ll talk with you tomorrow
[03:21] AuthorPizzaman: and .. i looked at them
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: and one was hiding under the covers
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: and when i removed the covers it was LA
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: and .. before removing the covers .. i was scared..and i remember feeling scared..
[03:22] kumascak: oh my
[03:22] kumascak: nasty dream
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: cause i was dreading it was LA
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: 🙁
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: yeah.. sucked
[03:22] AuthorPizzaman: night

I don’t criticize people that do something wrong, I criticize people who do things wrong intentionally and keep doing it knowingly that they are hurting themselves or others.

I think through times, although I am somehow of a good listener. Sometimes on important situations I’ve didn’t really listened to what people had to say. said “the bad thing about getting back together is that the emotion is not there, the magic of getting to know the other and finding all the little things about each other.” .. I have to listen..

[12:36] [scak] -> …™: lol, I’ve thought about it a lot, I just never say a thing
[12:36] [scak] -> …™: I already know you so well, and you know me so well, we were a couple once, we had an incredible good time, we had a very strong bond, we have a connection that we’ve seen through time…
[12:37] [scak] -> …™: it’s not hard to be with you, as I love you, and i know you love me, but I think we both need to heal and move on completely from our past, in order to consider dating
[12:37] [scak] -> …™: cause I don’t want to be with you, when you’re thinking of L.A, and I’m sure you don’t want to be with me, while I think of ks.

…..

[13:57] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: you know one sucky thing about us
[13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: waht ? [13:57] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: that I know you so fucking well, so there won't be any rush or thrill... [13:57] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I read you like an open book :) [13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: mmm.. [13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: i think there might be.. [13:57] -> Pizzaman <-: i'm not sure.. [13:58] -> Pizzaman <-: mmm.. i'm surely trilled everytime i see you [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: if you get psico on me :) and start being this totally new person [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I didn't meant that thrill [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I mean, things to discover, and so on [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I pretty much know how you think about most things in life [13:58] ∫(astro)² = ½blah³: I still get nervous when I see you :p