Went yesterday to the German Fest in Pawtucket. Coudl’ve had

Went yesterday to the German Fest in Pawtucket. Coudl’ve had a better time if I wasn’t too picky. Like the food was kinda crummy, but I didn’t go to eat the sausages and that’s what I wanted. There was a lot of dancing and singing, and well.. I’m not too much into that.. and I was uncomfy too cause the fact that i forgot to bring cash, and Joey payed for the food and beers I had, and since Joey’s mother went with us (I always get the can my mother come type).

I don’t like stereotypes, but it kept coming to my mind flashes of 80 year old couples dancing polka, and well.. the only thing that was missing was the polka, cause there were the dancing and the seniors all around.

HOT

Today I had a great time. Went with Delia to the doctor in the morning, she wanted to have some tests done. After that went to her place and hanged in there watching the news on cnn (the war), listening to music and doing stuff around.

After I a while I messaged Joey expecting him to come to Providence so we can hang around for a while. After waiting for a while he called and said he was on the way to Providence, and he picked me up. He met Sandra and Delia, and seems like both of them liked him.

After that Joey and I went to the cheesecake factory and I had this amazing caesar salad with crispy fried calamari on top. Yummy. Had a wonderful time chatting with Joey and having fun with him. We paid and went back to the car, and talked and kissed and talked and kissed, and snuggled and rubbed.. Wow.. I was SOOO boned !

After a while we stopped and went into the mall and walked around looking for stuff, which was totally smooth cause he was not hurrying me or I wasn’t hurrying him, everything was at a very nice pace. We went into a bunch of stores and it’s kewl that he’s very talkative and he gets to talk with all the attendants in the stores and they seem to really like him.

After that we went back to the car and kissed and rubbed some more, it feels soooooo kewl and sooooo good to feel liked and enjoyed so much by someone, it’s like for a few seconds I can close my eyes and stop thinking… and just feel, feel the greatness of human contact.. it’s soo kewl … and he’s a wonderful kisser !!!

He had a headache though, so he went back home to watch a movie with his parents…

This is an email I got today from the internship office !! S

This is an email I got today from the internship office !!
Seems like I got the job !

Luis, may I have your response to Jeffrey’s queston. Please send as quickly as possible. I’m leaving my office at 10:15 a.m. and may not be return until late afternoon.
Thanks,
Meredith

Dear Ms. Brassil,

Thanks for writing, I would like to proceed with working with Mr. Aranguren. I hesitated in confirming anything right now as it seems folks are scared about the SARS. It has not effected Japan, is there any concern on your side?

General Manager
Radisson Hotel Narita Airport
Tokyo – Japan

線と千尋の神隠し

Went to the movies with joey and saw the movie Spirited Away (線と千尋の神隠し). Was a good movie with lots of japanese kanji in it and lots of interesting stuff from japanese culture. had a nice time and got to talk with Joey, he seemed a lot better.
Also I’m going better too, not too depressed today !…

線と千尋の神隠し -> Sen to chihiro no kamikakushi

Well.. I’ve been feeling really crappy lately. This has lead

Well.. I’ve been feeling really crappy lately. This has lead to telling Joey I don’t think I can handle the emotions a relationship will bring to me. I don’t wanna hurt anybody, I don’t wana get hurt. And I think that I’m going to, so I better cut this and stop from dating him.

Damn, depression is an evil monster I can’t fight.

Why can’t I be normal like everybody else, be happy and have fun… and don’t hurt everybody in the process (including me)

This is my first try to do a calculation on how many times I

This is my first try to do a calculation on how many times I’v had sex :

Boyfriend #
1. No anal

2. 80% b 5 times a week for 2 years
52 x 6 =520–> 80% –> 416 bottom/104 top

3. 100% b 4 times a week for 1 year
52×4= 208 bottom

4. 50% 50% 3 times a week for 3 years
52×9=624—> 50% –> 312 bottom/312 top

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total 936 bottom/416 top

I’ll talk with my ex’s and revise the numbers