For the past couple of weeks I’ve been going out socially more on my own. Paul has been inviting me to his friends gatherings, and I guess that I’m not used to cause quite a stir in some people. A few people have “liked” me and well, I haven’t liked them back that way.
I mean, I’m not sure what would I do if the man of my dreams came down stumbling down the staircase. At this point in my life I have other priorities than to get intertwined with someone that will make my life much more complex. I’m sure I would love the attention and god knows I would love the never ending love making and closeness.
The very first thing that comes to my mind when I imagine myself getting involved with someone is that I have responsibilities in the relationship I am in with and I definitely don’t want to mess it up.
Another interesting perspective from where I look at the whole people liking me thing is the value I give to it. Maybe it’s totally stupid but for me beauty and coolness are two important factors, yah, I’m shallow.. or maybe I’m not.. I mean, aren’t those the primal impressions you get from people right after you meet them? Oh well, back to what I was saying, if the person doesn’t rank high up those two factors then the value I give it is low and hence the self esteem boost I get from it.
What about things in common, well, you know.. for starters I need a few good things in common with the person… Oh god, I think this post is going on the wrong direction, or maybe I’m just being honest with myself.
Oh, well.. this is an sms a received a few days ago and I’m still trying to figure out how to reply to:
“Glad you enjoyed the night. The mess was fine. Hmmm can I ask a question – I want to be up front I really like you and would like to get to know you more! My world has been tossed around since meeting you, both in what I see in you, your travel and also the way I feel a strong connection. Now that maybe just good friends, not sure. I am still trying to work it out. Now in saying all this I know it puts you on the spot, sorry! I like to be up front. Whatever your answer maybe i hope we can be friends. If nothing else meeting you is a very major event in my life and I thank you for that. If you want to chat about any of that let me know. Take care, Greg. :-)”
Got any ideas ?