Day: October 22, 2003

Thanks for the reality check.. I was not sad.. i guess i nee

Posted on by pizzaman

Thanks for the reality check.. I was not sad.. i guess i needed it .. deleted my profile in gaydar, realized it was serving no purpose, there is no point of having a profile there if you’re not looking to hook up. Soo.. I’m 32.. i don’t like guys my age, and of course people younger than me won’t like me, not cause i look too old (i probably look 23 or sumthing like that), but cause I’m ugly, but .. i don’t want an ugly bf either… so .. who to blame.. i totally understand people who won’t talk to be cause I’m ugly.

Do you know that I’ve never made a friend on the street, like, someone that talked to you and exchange phone numbers..

checked gaydar.. my ex is 24/7 there.. and now octavio, who was always been his “friend” is there as well..

i need to re-evaluate some things in my life..

can’t keep looking for love… i wasn’t meant to be loved..
i should have learned that in 32 years of stupidity..
..
well..
like natez will say..
fuck fuckity fucking fucked fuckoo fucker fuckublic fuckeroo fuck.

*bows*

Love Thyself

Posted on by pizzaman

from my ex-ex boyfriend…

[02:54] -> Pizzaman <-: i have a problem [02:55] -> Pizzaman <-: i don't like people my own age [02:55] -> Pizzaman <-: i think they look old and used [02:55] ╠ﮒcaҜ╣◘ evil³: lol [02:55] ╠ﮒcaҜ╣◘ evil³: I have the same problem [02:56] ╠ﮒcaҜ╣◘ evil³: ::p [02:56] ╠ﮒcaҜ╣◘ evil³: reason why I'm not with you [02:56] -> Pizzaman <-: 🙁 what a self esteem booster, don't you think ?

To love.. or to be loved.. that is the question

Posted on by pizzaman

-> PizzamanTest <- says: the problem is not msn -> PizzamanTest <- says: the problem is ... -> PizzamanTest <- says: that cause you love me.. you expect too much from me -> PizzamanTest <- says: and i can't give you that much, cause i'm working on myself Roelo says: I understand. things like this should just be said more because that makes it easier and it helps you too on working on yourself. you come a long way by just doing that Roelo says: I sometimes am scared saying hi to you -> PizzamanTest <- says: *hugs* -> PizzamanTest <- says: i know the feeling -> PizzamanTest <- says: i've been there Roelo says: because I always initiate conversation -> PizzamanTest <- says: yup.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: i know Roelo says: and feel like a pest even though I just want conversation -> PizzamanTest <- says: roelo.. i've been on both sides of the fence Roelo says: so I was just hoping on a hi from you now and then. -> PizzamanTest <- says: roelo.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: what needs to change is the need... -> PizzamanTest <- says: if the need is gone.. then only the pleasure is left -> PizzamanTest <- says: mmm.. Roelo says: i dont understand -> PizzamanTest <- says: you NEED to chat with me -> PizzamanTest <- says: cause you love me -> PizzamanTest <- says: you're short of breath..waiting for my reply -> PizzamanTest <- says: trying hard not to get upset -> PizzamanTest <- says: frustrated -> PizzamanTest <- says: hoping i will answer.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: and say anything -> PizzamanTest <- says: something Roelo says: so you treat it with avation Roelo says: avoiding Roelo says: that is cruel -> PizzamanTest <- says: Shush -> PizzamanTest <- says: wait -> PizzamanTest <- says: don't think -> PizzamanTest <- says: listen -> PizzamanTest <- says: i don't treat it with anything.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: i act normally.. like i act with anybody that will mean what u mean to me -> PizzamanTest <- says: the problem is not in how fast or slow i reply.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: the problem is the uneveness off the feelings -> PizzamanTest <- says: you love me a whole lot more than i love you, and you're interested in me a whole lot more than I am interested in you -> PizzamanTest <- says: and that's what creates the friction.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: if we felt evenly then there would be no frictions.. -> PizzamanTest <- says: *done* -> PizzamanTest <- says: *steps down the soap box* -> PizzamanTest <- says: *hugs*.. thanks for listening