mmm.. It’s been two days since I sent the email, and still no reply, seems like he hasn’t been online too much lately, I wonder why. It’s silly how I get excited about somethings, and for others I don’t care much, but I haven’t been able to sleep well thinking about all this, what could happen, what would he say, what would his reaction be, will he agree, will he not, what should I do either way. Feels like this is a pivot point in my life, I have many decisions to make that will alter the course of my life.