FINALLY !!! .. I ordered the documents I need from the University, in 10 days I’ll have everything I need to send in my hands (except the certified tranlations, but I need to have all the documents to get the translations done) . I had chinesse food for lunch AGAIN. In the last month I’ve eaten like 15 times there.
While I was eating I was reading a book, it’s called Feeling Good by Dr. David M. Burns. It talks about how to deal with depression. I was reading a chapter about how some people need to please others to achieve acceptance, that in turn gives them a sense of approval. I think I am like that, I feel if I let people down they won’t like me anymore or love me anymore, I need to work on this, because I know it’s not a matter of self worth, it’s a matter of knowing when I can, when I feel good doing it, and when not. While I was reading the book I though a lot about Luis Antonio.
I don’t need people’s approval to be happy, I have enough common sense to make my own decisions. I need to work harder for myself, not for others, just for myself. That is not selfish, it’s just a path. Because when I get emotionally stable enough I will be able to share more.
My left foot hurts a little bit, I hope it’s not tendonitis or something like that, I will try to keep high impact exercises to a minumum for a while.
Peter’s been here the whole day, he’s my friend, and I love him very much, but I know I need to be alone… I need my space.. but he has nowhere to go, and I don’t want him to get sad. I’ll deal with it within myself…