Author: pizzaman

I was checking my flight info for miami.. and my flight is going to do a Layover in ST PAUL, MN !!!!
I”M GONNA MEET BEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*DANCES AROUND*

well.. I’m still full of anxiety cause I’ve been running around all day.. and kinda got scared that our network will be infected with the MSBLASTER, but did not.. 🙂 WOOHOO !!

Also .. on other news.. today my boss called me on the phone “come to my office”.. and I was scared.. and he handed me an envelope with 50,000 yen !! WOW.. as a gift so I go around Japan for sightseeing..

On other news.. the guy I met in Makuhari.. YEAH THAT ONE *sticks out tongue* *rolls eyes* ..send me a letter, inside … a Japan Rail Pass, so I can ride ALL the trains I want in Japan for free !!! WOW.. I was soo amazed.. that’s worth 30,000 yen !!

Also .. I got notified by my boss today, that he changed my plane ticket, from 24th to th 23rd, and now I’m flying directly to Miami, that way I will save some $$.. so .. today .. I saved $1000 without moving a finger.

When my boss gave me the envelope my voice kinda cracked, i was very excited and impressed, like .. i don’t know.. i guess usually i expect the worse from people, maybe people in Venezuela are like that or something, but I’ve met so many nice people around.

soo.. like.. yesterday I went to a public pool with saito-san, one of my coworkers, he’s the one who has gotten the closest to me. He stops by at my office almost every day and always offers me cigarrettes. He’s really nice with me. They wanted to invite me, among other things so that their children have contact with gaijins like me. That will make them more confortable to speak english. I had loads of fun at the pool, I felt weird sometimes though, I was very concerned about my looks, mainly because, well.. japanese guys specially teens & early 20’s have GREAT bodies, wow.. I was amazed, like 0% fat. And well.. I’m kinda slim, but I have my fat deposits here and there, so I was kinda concerned about that, also I was concerned cause well… I bought this swimsuit in New Orleans, and it’s kinda tiny, not speedo type, but more like hot pants kinda type, and well, I’ve always been shy, so I had a very strong debate in my mind on wether to wear them or not. Also my hair, i mean .. I finally (after 30 years) learned how to kinda keep it under control, but well.. NOT IN A POOL , so .. hehe.. i kinda looked like a lion (as saito san said) .. I guess I never overcame when I was a teen and other people in school used to tease me about my looks, like they would try to find any small detail (good or bad) and make me suffer with it, and while I was there I never learned how to fight back, for me .. the worst years of my life have been many, and among those were the 5 years of highschool.

Geez.. I totally forgot that LJ existed, I’ve been reading other’s posts but haven’t posted much. I’ve been very nervous cause I was asked to work at the lobby and I’m extremely shy with people I don’t know.

First, I don’t welcome anyone to the hotel cause I don’t fucking care if they stay here or not, second, I don’t wanna fucking smile cause i don’t fuckin feel like fucking smiling 😀 !

Enough ranting, BTW.. I’m getting fat .. I weighted like 59 yesterday .. I’m off to read harry potter and eat more chocolates..

Listening to talk about his ex, i could only think about this song:

Queen
You Don’t Fool Me

You don’t fool me
You don’t fool me…
Da, da da da dah
Da da da dah
Da da dah…

You don’t fool me – those pretty eyes
That sexy smile – you don’t fool me
You don’t rule me – you’re no surprise
You’re telling lies – you don’t fool me
Mmm, mama said be careful of that girl
Mama said you know that she’s no good
Mama said be cool, don’t you be no fool
Yup bup ba ba ba ba da da da dah!
You don’t fool me
You don’t fool me, you don’t fool me
She’ll take you
You don’t fool me, and break you
You don’t rule me, you don’t fool me
You don’t fool me, she’ll take you
You don’t fool me, and break you
Sooner or later you’ll be playing by her rules

Baby you don’t fool me, yeah
You don’t fool me, you don’t have to say ‘don’t mind’
You don’t have to teach me things I know
Sooner or later you’ll be playing by her rules
Oh, (fool you) oh, (rule you) she’ll take you (take you)
And break you (break you)
Yeah

Mama said be cool
Mama said she’ll take you for a fool
She’ll take you, and break you
Ba ba ba ba bap bap ba baah
La la la la la lah
You don’t fool me
You don’t fool me…

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Why there is a sadistic need from people to break others. Use them and abuse them until they are broken. We knew this, we knew it was happening, one had to win, one had to loose.

Can people be so evil? or people just act from their own ignorace. Can’t they see the pain that they are inflicting? or once the seed is planted, there is no turning back.

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quix·ot·ic
adj.
Caught up in the romance of noble deeds and the pursuit of unreachable goals; idealistic without regard to practicality.
Capricious; impulsive: At worst his scruples must have been quixotic, not malicious (Louis Auchincloss).

I get really stressed out about petty things…

I looooove Harry Potter books.

My evenings consist of eating chocolate while reading Harry Potter.

Installing Windows 2000 in japanese is no easy task for a non-japanese speaker.

You know what I wanna do ..

Sleep late
Eat pizza
play computer games
watch TV
and basically do what the fuck I want,
even if it’s nothing.

I feel like a slave,
I have to come to work every day,
if I don’t feel like it, I still have to come,
that sucks ass.

I knew it was a matter of time.. I was wondering why it had not happened yet, but Roelo got upset. Yeah.. just like a stomach .. *giggles*.. just cause we were chatting and I sent him this link ..

http://www2.b3ta.com/mind-control/

geezz.. people are so sensitve ..

whatever…

i hate bitchy people..

goodnight

So this last weekend I went out again. I went to Shinjuku, it’s the gay area in Tokyo. I met with Roelo at Makuhari (although I had to meet him a day later than I expected cause I had puter problems here at work) and from there we went to Tokyo.

It was kinda weird, cause when I arrived to the hotel a girl from the staff asked me, are you Mr. Luis. And then told me there was a message for me. Roelo was expecting me in some of his friend’s room cause he had checked out of his room already. I went to the room number they gave me and there was Roelo with this girl-friend. Pretty weird girl, and she was kinda fat.. and .. fat girls and me don’t get along too well.. Unless it’s Belen.. *giggles*

gotta go for dinner…

*yum*

Back from dinner..

So I was having dinner and this guy that looks VERY gay starts talking to me, I’ve heard that there is a guy from Peru working in the hotel, and I was kinda sure it was him, but since I’m kinda shy, and he’s kinda not my type I really didn’t wanted to approach him. So we start talking to me, and telling me he lived here and there and he’s been living in Japan for the last several years. He asked me 4 times to go to the hotel bar cause he works there… I’ll go and see what happens..

So back to my story.. I met Roelo’s fat friend, and *think* *i’ll better say good things and stop complaining* .. so .. was an uneventful day.. we went to the Roppongi area (where hetero party) and then to Shinjuku (where gay party). We looked around, and we went to this alternative clothing store, WOW .. Amazing.. They had clothing for every lifestyle, punk, gothic, raver, and some others I don’t know the names. But everything was so like MEGA expensive, I couldn’t help to buy 3 shirts, each one was like $80 🙁 although Roelo offered to pay for them 😀 . We went back to the hotel room and we changed.

Finally we went back to the Shinjuku area, had a nice dinner, after went to drink, danced for a while, but it had this sleazy bar ambience that I really don’t like. So at like 3am we went back to the hotel room, and well.. he stated rubbing me.. and of course.. I get hard in 2ms .. so .. I ended up being bottom !! YAY !! 😀 ..

The next day we went walked around and went to a bookstore, wow I saw amazing japanese food recipe books, didn’t bought any though… but I finally got my Harry Potter 3. Walked some more, went to Harajuku, it’s a shopping area has a shrine and lots of girls dressed in weird manner. Then went to the Shrine, was funny to look at Roelo dragging his wheelie suitcase all around the shrine.

The train system in here is amazing, it’s like everything is connected ..

In the afternoon went back to Makuhari where Roelo has his hotel room and we HAD finally a talk, I told him about how I feel, and that I was not feeling butterflies, he took it extremely well, so well that I was surpised. I felt a LOT better, my mood totally changed… it was so obvious that I was relieved, i felt a lot better, catched the trains and came back home… I had to change trains in sobe, in chiba, and in narita and then catch a bus ..

geez.. seems like a long trip.