Month: March 2003

[00:17:13] AuthorPizzaman: 🙁
[00:17:14] AuthorPizzaman: damn..
[00:17:29] AuthorPizzaman: i regret so many things about my last relationship..
[00:17:36] AuthorPizzaman: i wish it had never happened

Someone told me that he has been having an active sex life and that made me feel weird. Don’t know exactly what, I guess it’s a mixture of jealousy and thinking that I’m not letting myself enjoy promiscuous sex in it full joy and splendor.

Damn..

Now images of my ex race thru my mind, like slashes of a sword, really fast and painful, and I’m not even depressed, I’m just as usual.

Gee.. I never thought I was a nut case.

on a lighter note.. dunno if I already wrote about this but.. seems like the guy from the japanese internship (co-op) still has the opportunity open and my resume was forwarded to him. So, probably this week I’ll found out if he wants is interested or not. I will love to go, that way it’ll let me run away to a very different place… , and also learn from another culture. I’m sad I won’t have a shrink there, and well..

Finally went this afternoon to India restaurant, very close to the dorm where I live. It was sunday brunch and it was good. I had many goodies which I don’t really care to remmember now, but the whole point in writing this shit it to talk about what the fuck I did and not about the fucking ingredients of the stupid meal.

I ate so much I had to come back to the dorm and lay on bed for the rest of the day. I also had a Taj Mahal beer, which is from India an it’s pretty good. I went to the restaurant with my korean roomy, he’s kinda nice.

I feel so lost without you,
like if there was no direction to steer to,
like I didn’t knew where to head,
if I drove in circles,
being aimlessly.

Don’t know what to eat,
how to have fun,
what to feel.

I just wanna feel you..

I’m feelling a little bit better.

Just walked down the hall in the dorm, lots of people talking in different rooms. I like it, I would like that, but I cannot handle it. People annoy me, but I feel lonely if I’m alone.

I just finished talking with my ex on the phone. I miss him so much..

1 hour later…

I’m really sad.. :'(

damn.. I’m still sad.. and it’s been a while already .. I think I’m getting the flu too.. 🙁

The difference between you and me is not that I’m crazy and you are sane, it’s that I know i’m crazy and you think you are sane.

March 10th

Today is my first day of classes of the last trimester I’m gonna be at Johnson & Wales Univerisity. I can’t wait until is the last day, not because I don’t like it here, but beca…

March 14th

Well, right now I’m going thru a full fledged depressive state. I’m about to burst into tears at any moment and I don’t even know why.

Let’s see what had happened this week. I got a new roomate, he’s from Korea, and he looks like a nice guy. He seems very respectful and usually he’s concerned about me.

damn.. how much I hate music.. It’s used as a weapon.. it’s used to disturbed others, and most of it sucks anyways..

dammit