It took me 4 years, but I finally figured it out. My ex boyfriend was a gold -digger :
gold-digger:
young man or teenager, interested in landing an elderly or wealthy man for a stable gay relationship.
Finally there were lots of things from the past that I was able to understand, behaviors, his upbringing and why it was so easy for him. But I realized that it was nothing new for him, for him what was new was a long term relationship, but sex for money (short term or long term benefits) was what he was used to. From his teenage years living in the streets befriending prostitutes and homeless kids to all the lies and mysteries his life was engulfed in and that he would never seem to get straight.
I feel relieved that finally I was able to understand, finally I realized I didn’t pushed him into anything, it wasn’t me after all, I didn’t do anything wrong, it was his nature, something that from the beginning he was not able to fight with, be cause he is just who he is.