Month: September 2002

Things seem to haven’t changed at all since I told my Dimitris (my roommate) about my gayness. I had my first exam today, although I didn’t studied as much as I would’ve liked I think I did okay enough, I paid attention in class and since there wasn’t that much information to hold and not that much amount of time has passed I think I did remembered most of the stuff that I was supposed to. I need to set up a better schedule for all the things I have to do. I’ve been jacking off too much the last couple of days 🙂 .. Mainly because I’ve been looking at lots of furry animal pictures that a friend sent me.

Yesterday I told my roomate that a I am gay. We were talking about socializing and trying to get to do more things, and I just felt like telling him and I said “You know that I am gay, right?”. To which he responded nicely, he said he didn’t had a clue (it’s cool so I’m not obvious), and he was briefly shocked… but he had no problem with it.

Done too many things today, woke up early.. went to classes, went to the gym… and a bunch other things.. hope tomorrow I can rest more

People always kinda end up relying on me to do some things, especially younger people. It’s obvious that while I relate to younger people that have not experienced some things I end up showing them how to go things they’ve never done before.

The winter clothes that Jon and Tyler sent to me arrived. They are really nice. These guys are really nice. I like them a lot. They are so mature and friendly to me. They have this beautiful relationship. Someday I hope I will be able to have something like that.

Yesterday we went to New York City. We were going to the Yankee Stadium to watch a baseball game, the whitesox against the yankees. We took the bus at 9am and on our way there the bus had a flat tire. We arrived late to the game, on the 5th inning. I had several hot dogs there, extremely expensive food BTW. I had fun yelling at the players. The Yakees lost 8-1. At the end of the game we hopped into the bus and came back. It was a long trip to watch a boring game.

My greek roomate saw me sad after chatting with Luis Antonio and he told me about his song :

The lyrics to Everybody’s Free to Wear Sunscreen, by Mary Schmich:
Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they’ve faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine.

Don’t worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts. Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don’t waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind. The race is long and, in the end, it’s only with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don’t.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You’ll miss them when they’re gone.

Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t. Maybe you’ll have children, maybe you won’t. Maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are everybody else’s.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don’t be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they’ll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They’re your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you’ll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don’t expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you’ll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out.

Don’t mess too much with your hair or by the time you’re 40 it will look 85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

There is this really CUTE guy that is in my Legal Environment of Business I class. Today I sat next to him on class, and since he didn’t brought a book I offered to share mine with him. Although it was nothing, I really felt good and I couldn’t keep from staring at him. It would be soooo great to be friends with him.

On saturday I will be going to New York City. I got tickets for the Yankee Stadium. Thanks to JWU (Johnson and Wales University) I only had to pay $10 for tickets and transportation and that’s a pretty good deal. Although baseball games bore me, it will be a nice experience.

I’ve never been quite an excelllent student, but I will try to do my best to keep up to date on all my assignments. At least for the moment the classes aren’t difficult nor are the projects. I just need to keep on the motivation to keep all my work up to date so I can earn good grades.

I’m thinking about either joining the sailing or the wrestling team, I want to fill my schedule with some extracurricular activities so I don’t have lots of free time flying around. I will check on that today.

Going to the gym is really nice, I can spend some time there excercising and taking care of myself.