Weird weird weird, usually I don’t talk with women thru messenger or ICQ, call me a sexist or call me anything, it’s just that I don’t like the usual teenage girl who, when I say that I am gay, runs away scared or closes the chat because they are looking for a guy who’s not gay. But today was different, a girl messaged me on ICQ and I started talking with her, in the end she was a phsycologist and to make the story short, she called me home and talked with me for around two hours, and I got to tell lots of things about my last relationships and life. She was real cool to do that, and told me she was going to call me tomorrow again. She was very impressed with the things I was telling her, especially my last relationship has been EXTREMELY weird, like an episode in Jerry Springer, but without the physical violence, but with the sex, betrayal, lies, and cheap people. I think she had a great time. Gee.. at least my life is of interest for a shrink, that is something ! 🙂
I felt like this was a very important thing to me, but Peter needed my help, so I kinda told him I was on the phone with my shrink and ignored him on ICQ, well he was extremely upset calling me a bad friend, and telling me I should never call him again. People are so used to me be there whenever they need me, that when I need time for myself I have to fight for it. Geee, I don’t want to deal with this, and basically he didn’t needed my help… Basically his exboyfriend is dating another guy, and he has told me about it, and Peter was pissed off because I wasn’t telling him all the details about it. Even that Peter is one of my best friends, I feel like I am betraying his exboyfriend’s confessions, and I don’t like to be put in the place to do bad things. I know that Peter is Peter and I love hiim very much, but… When should you betray your principles for a friend ?
I can’t say that you have been there for me “ALWAYS”, but hell a lot more than most people I know, you’ve been caring throughout the years since we broke up, we’ve had up and downs but who doesn’t? All I know, is that you were there with me in the times when I really needed it…
Your life it’s important Luis, and it’s important to me, you’re not the only one living it, cause believe it or not, it affects others, or I speak for myself at least. Your life it’s of interest to me, and though I repeat he¡ve had our up and downs, I expect you to know that I love you very much and always will, cause you have shown me the concept of strong friendship thru time.
Simply take your time, you need it, you have problems like we all do…and if someone gets pissed at you for not being totally devoted to them, their problem honey…
I expect you to be there with me, in future times when I’m sure I will need you…and I offer you the same, anytime, my time, my love and devotion are ready, you just have to dial a phone number and you know that…
Sincerely yours,
Ninin…