Day: June 21, 2002

note to self : I need to move as soon as possible

I’m still a little bit down from yesterday depression, but anyways, feeling better. Another day, went to the gym, I was like 6 minutes late for the metro, and Enrique had to wait those minutes, I don’t want this to happen any more. Next time he tells me he’s in the process of getting ready, I have to start the process too.

The day at the gym went cool, I’m not very strong so I can’t handle too much weight, but that doesn’t worry me a bit. I need to find my old records of weights and repetitions so I can have a good basis on how to train correctly. I like the steam bath, today I was all by myself there.

Everyday that passes by I’m closer to the gateway, that will let me be free.

I am depressed… I am pissed off… Why this fucking things have to happen to me ?.. Just because I’m naive and stupid people have to hurt me so bad ? Dammit … Why Luis Antonio was so mean to me? I hate it .. I’m not a bad person… I don’t deserve this.. It’s been 7 months already and I’m still hurting and he doesn’t even remember about me I’m sure. 3 years we spent together, 3 years.. fuck.. I hate everything, dammit